It’s a Sinus Infection
Folks, it’s a sinus infection and acute bronchitis. Exactly what I expected, so please stop giving me looks. COVID-19 isn’t the only illness people are battling. And while I’d love to be hiding at home, I have to get my meds and report to work still.
{long post, pretty much writing my thoughts because let’s be honest…what else do we have to do?! And I process life better when I put it into words. Otherwise it just pings around my head and creates unnecessary noise. So prepare for some personal word vomit. Feel free to share your own experiences!}
With all that being said, Yesterday hit hard.
I thrive in chaos. I find energy where it’s usually lacking and get amped as I work finding a solution to a problem. These last several days have given me plenty to work through.
Then came yesterday.
The first day in all of this that I finally sat down and really processed the impact of what is happening around the globe, and especially right here in my own little world. I’ve been go go go, facts facts facts. Then I slowed down. And let’s just say that weighted blanket came in handy. Suddenly all that seemed so surreal became very real.
Some of what hit home for me:
Heartache as my husbands family is no longer able to visit his grandma who is in hospice care
Concerns for my grandpa who has been in and out of the hospital lately and is naturally high risk
Fear over job sites being closed and my husband losing his job thus us losing 1/2 our household income
Confusion, albeit understandable, over being asked to stay home since I’ve been sick {folks, I’m a workaholic, so that one hit harder than you may expect}. It’s scary suddenly realizing your seen as a risk, even though we know we are all just being cautious
Sadness over the reality of likely not getting to celebrate my former students as they walk across a stage at graduation
Bummed because our daughters First Communion is likely postponed and while streaming mass is a nice alternative, it was not the same experience as gathering with that calm community I look forward to each week
Sad that we are possibly among the many that will be cancelling our big family vacation with my parents. Trivial to some, but sad nonetheless
Worried about my SIL and my sweet niece she is carrying as she is trying to protect her from these illnesses leading to her due date {continued in comments
The closure of the Disney College Program. Hit’s really close to home in many ways and while their time was cut short I just hope they walk away with as much of an incredible experience, memories, and connections as I did. Did I cry as I watched the last guests leave Magic Kingdom last night? You bet I did.
Concerns for my numerous friends and family battling their own fears and anxieties around this experience, both spoken and silent.
We are all facing some type of uncertainty and confusion. I think the best thing to remember though is that even in quarantine we aren’t alone.
While social media can be a royal pain in the ass many times {many days I post and run away avoid all the nonsense out there…other than people’s hilarious memes. I’m a sucker for those so keep um coming!} I’m grateful for the incredible and unique ways people are connecting. Zoom calls with family. Story and drawing lessons from actors and artists. THIS is the cultural renaissance I’m focusing on.
My faith has been what’s gotten me through the last year. Do I agree with everything in the Church all the time? Hardly. But I do believe in the power of mass positive energy and vibes, and because of that I will continue to pray. And pray hard.
Grateful for more time with my family. Because let me tell you, their hugs are what’s bringing me comfort in all this chaos.
Big {virtual} hugs. Wash your hands. Stay smart.
<3 K
